I ignored where to draw the line
Move from then to now
Was a simple quest of unification
Felt my body
Dive onto both sides
A rope pulling me backward
As to remember
All that made me smile
Another came closer
Narrower and higher
Giving me a chance to climb
Could only carry the necessary
Onto the next journey
Had to leave the past
Make space at last
Feeling one foot higher than the other
Knowing the motion
It refused to move
My head was leading
Fear and sadness
All came in closer
As my heart was beating
I refused to rush
Cause I knew
I couldn't go on carrying rocks
Preferred to be patient
As to choose with attention
The ones that could truly serve me
Onto my next destination
Lying to myself.
Pretending it feels better this way without embodying it yet.
My mind has not processed our break up,
Even on days when I am convinced that the chapter is closed.
When it ended, I felt released.
I knew I would not have to go through all the bad things anymore.
What I did not realize is that I was addicted.
Addicted to the obstacles that made me feel alive.
Addicted to the sadness that you made me go through.
Addicted to the darkness in your eyes.
I fell for you.
When it all started I promised myself that I would never love you.
But as time went by my heart spoke differently.
All I wanted to hear is that you love me too.
But that never happened.
It will never happen.
My hopes gave up.
Your heart spoke up.
We would never be in each other’s arms again.
My bed feels empty without you.
My sheets smells like regret.
My impulses are lost.
Time will pass as it always does, and one day I will look back and say:
I loved you.
This weekend I had the opportunity to assist at my first Rogers Cup ever. This is the biggest tennis tournament in Canada along with the Rogers cup in Toronto. I did not have much expectations as I have never really been to a live sport game in my life. All I can say is that it was one of the most exciting experience to live. Now, I completely understand the addiction and it is definitely not like watching a game on TV. The energy is contagious and sustained throughout the game. It almost feels like people’s heart beat in unison.
One thing that really blew my mind was the unbelievable support from the crowd toward our nation player, Denis Shapovalov. The young rising star in Tennis hooked up many hearts over the weekend. Even if he did not go to finals, Canadians really supported him till the end. It was my first time acknowledging the pride Canadians hold toward the nation’s athletes. This pride was pure collective love. I felt very happy to be able to live those electrical moments and also very proud to be a Canadian. This is surely the beginning of long career for him and I hope I get to see him evolve in this journey along my fellow Canadians. Shine Bright Shapovalov!
On my hibiscus cues
Of my lovely dumbness
I reject the pain at rest
Feel free to blame
The torture at aim
I gained the strength
I ridicule the world surrounding
Pretending to be the angel of the sea
Above the sky you listen kindly
To my prayers of sanity
I question my sorrows In the night of sleepy Hollow
A candle delight some brightness
During war I felt harmless
If beauty sees the lord
The darkness seeks the best
A bottle of pill Rolling down
The sensuous floor of mademoiselle
She ceases the moment by the rope
To hung the cat by the tail
The suffering escapes
In the lullaby blues
I never wanted to forget
Just take a bliss out of the smoke we kiss
And hit the stars like rainbow strip
Blind to their time
Never wanted more
Nor find the missing piece
As if it was
Never to forget
The reasons that I’ve let
The reasons that I've broke
Speed so fast never to rest
Behind our days were crushed
I tried to listen
To the reasons we gave up
Twined to our shapeless head
And to the haunted mounted space
No fire escape
To my apocalyptic loneliness
Heard a mess was coming close to rest
But nothing else made sense
In our secret nest
On January 1st, I took a creative resolution instead of starting something that would possibly fall through during the year. I told myself that I would draw everyday with no time frame imposed. So I started, really motivated, with simple things everyday. As the days went by, I found myself exploring new techniques and starting more challenging drawings with shades and textures. My goal wasn’t to get better at drawing but practicing consistency. Even on the days I didn’t feel like doing this activity, I would draw a simple thing for about five minutes just to tell myself that I did it. I didn’t want my new hobby to become a chore so I allowed myself the freedom of time to spend on it.
After six months, I look back at my drawings and I can see a huge improvement. I even increased my interest in this side passion as to buy new drawing tools such as charcoal and different shades of graphite. After analyzing my state of mind after these months, I noticed an improvement in my well-being as well; not only was I more positive on a day to day basis, I was also less inclined to fall into depressive thought patterns. Drawing everyday became a form of therapy for me without expecting it. It allowed me daily time for myself while letting my subconscious run free. I slowly built more confidence in my capabilities which reflected in my life. I attracted more positive energy which increased all areas of my life; my social relationships, my financial situation, my creativity and my commitment to things. Now, there’s six more months to go and I’m excited to see what this passion has in store for me. All it takes is a pencil and paper; give it a try!
Welcome on my artsy blog! I decided to create this section because I also have a huge passion for writing aside from acting. I thought this would be the perfect place to share my inspirations, experiences and adventures with you. I also write a lot of poetry so you will definitely get to read a lot of my poems here. Hope you enjoy ! Xo Sara Sue
Welcome on my artsy blog! I decided to create this section because I also have a huge passion for writing aside from acting. I thought this would be the perfect place to share my inspirations, experiences and adventures with you. I also write a lot of poetry so you will definitely get to read a lot of my poems here. Hope you enjoy ! Xo